Death Be NOT Proud

In life, there are two ways to go...the good (angelic) or the bad (devilish).NOT
In talking with Rabbi Ben Lanckton, after my clear suicide attempt, I learned that God loves you. But thats not a good reason to die, but the best possible reason not to die! To live, breath. Five senses. I mean, the more I think about what happeneed the less I realize it was a "big flippin' mistake" and learn and move the hell on.org! But, seriously, I could've died. And you, I, a person should never be proud of death. In any way. In murder,suicide (be it attempt or not), anything. Death be not proud. Death always tries to overule things in books and movies, stories, etc. But in actuality, death will never rule over anything, except point blank;death.
So if it's bad to die....wait....as I was taught, only yesterday, it's not bad to die, but it's bad to kill. And suicide even an attempt is a part of killing.
I know that there truly is the love of loving yourself, is most important. Treat yourself as if you are the innocent baby you were born as. And that everyday, when you shower, you cleanse your body of the upset and "bad" of the day.
And remember, Death Be NOT  Proud!